How much caring is too much?
Can you ever care too much? In my experience, I would say yes.
Some people would describe me as dramatic or as an over-exaggerator and those words may be true but so are a couple of others.
I am one of the most caring people you will ever meet, the most loyal friend you will ever have, and I will not be afraid to be brutally honest even if it hurts your feelings.
Throughout the years I have cared so deeply for people who honestly probably haven’t even noticed. Actually, I know they haven’t noticed. It just becomes routine until the strength I have is so stretched to the point I have to let go.
I usually care too much. Not just in friendships but for everything as a whole. I obsess over things not worth my time. My mind is full of topics you would never guess just from looking at me.
I’m full of experiences you will never have to experience. I’m not saying that to make myself sound better but you will never be able to fully understand me, yet you judge me. How funny is that?
I could protect my peace if I stopped caring so deeply yet I can’t. My mind knows I shouldn’t but my heart won’t sync. I feel burdened to have feelings yet I know it shouldn’t be like that.
If you’ve ever truly been one of my friends you would know how much I care for the people that I love. If we are no longer friends I’m truly sad for you because you missed out. Whether or not it was the best way I could have done that during that time I did care about you to the point of losing myself, just because I loved you so much. And if that sounds narcissistic sorry not sorry you can stop reading.
Anyway, what I am trying to say is that losing someone who doesn’t care about you is better than losing yourself. Learn from my experience. It hurts so bad but so does continually putting in effort for it to not be reciprocated. You will get over it if you set that boundary but if you don’t it’ll be a continuous cycle of heartbreak.
2024 is your year. Why let others control your feelings? This is a little bit morbid but you honestly never know when you’re going to die so you might as well enjoy your time. Our lives are so short and spending so much time in areas that could not care any less about you is not what we’re doing this year.
This is the year to not worry, not be embarrassed, and to just have fun. We will never be younger again. TAKE ADVANTAGE.
xo, Emma